What, oh WHAT, have we been up to around this piece? Maybe you're wondering, maybe you're not. My mom, one of the only readers I probably have left, went into the hospital today to be treated for pneumonia and there is likely a good chance no one will read the update anyway, right?
But, just in case.
Here is what's going on as far as Living in Adoption Land goes. Some bravado about the trip there being a one way ticket and just hoping that if we decide to remain that it's the right choice. This is not anything I would wish on anyone. I will share here after therapy this week if the 'signs' I'm seeing (of bonding) are deemed 'real' by the therapy professionals. Or, if yet again, I've drunk the Kool-Aid and bought the Brooklyn Bridge.
Things around Ft. W have been running off the rails. My husband has picked up an extra shift at work. This means, he goes in around dinnertime, comes home after bedtime and is up before the sun (usually by 4 at the latest) to return to his job and home after we've left for school. It's like having him deployed, only not, because he's home during the day (trying to sleep), but because he's home, I keep thinking he's going to go to the grocery store--or maybe go on the weekend. Hasn't happened and we're now officially nearly out of eggs, bread and milk. That never happens while he's deployed. This is evidence of how consumed I am thanks to M3's big bag of BS she hauls around and how distracting it is to the daily things I need to do--mostly because I'm exhausted right now.
I'd rather he not have to do this because having him here all day, able to do things for the house and the kids was amazing. It had never happened in nearly 10 years of marriage. I became pretty spoiled by it. He did a good job most of the time. I would rather he be here than at work for that second shift, but to do that, I'm either in need of a clone who can double bill at any one of my three jobs or I'll need to figure out another way to bring in some cash. I've decided rather than just spend money somewhere, I might as well have a consultant's discount & earn commission to boot when I addict my friends, family and neighbors to my current addiction. I miss the direct selling business model (used to be very successful with it until I started law school) and am anxious to sign up with Scentsy and start making money.
Once I have my own website through which anyone can place an order, I'll put it on my sidebar, so you can see for yourself how cool it is! For now, though, you can check out the site of ther person who will be my mentor in the biz. Yes, it will be one more thing on my plate, but it will also be my ticket out of the house some nights as well as a way to have a conversation with people I know and those I don't about something NOT related to my youngest child and her mental illness. That will be AMAZINGLY therapeutic to me.
And, it will allow me to keep myself stocked full of wonderful things like these handy travel tins
that I love in my car, my office and anywhere else that needs a little freshening.
My goal is to be rolling this month (two of my besties, the Momtourage's Mo & Kim are planning a huge launch party) and have my first commission checks coming prior to the spring break trip we're planning.
Yep, that's right, I'm starting a new business with an actual GOAL in mind. How's that for mature?
The Mr. and I were advised by M3's therapist to take our girls on vacation over spring break while leaving M3 in a qualified respite provider's home. She said we need to reconnect with M1, M2 and each other and try to gain some perspective of what we're doing, where we're headed, but also take a breather and just relax as a family group--which we have not done since M3 arrived. It sounds wonderful and because Hubs had the foresight to take the girls' spring break week off, we should be able to actually GO somewhere.
In '05 when Hubs returned from a deployment, we went to a working ranch in Georgia and had a wonderful time. We're in contact with them again to try and arrange a visit during the designated dates. We hoped to go during the first portion of the girls break, but they are booked, so it may be the backside...we'll see what Hubs says about that. I'm all for it because we need to take a breather. And, there is nothing like being in the barn and riding on a trail to relax. Note to self: Take Benadryl for all involved. Ha! We love the outdoors and animals, but they don't necessarily love us! Fingers crossed this all falls into place.
Other than all this (isn't this enough?!), life continues to hurtle forward without ceasing.
I suppose that's better than the alternative.