I would like to think that I usually think things through and consider all the possibilities. Usually, I run things to the nth degree of negative, borrow trouble, carry the one and end up talking myself out of even relatively safe things.
This new job I start tomorrow, however, found me in a bad spot in which I thought I was so desperate for a job that I would take this and make it all work. I figured out most things after the interview went well and I thought I might receive an offer. There are, however, a couple of things that honestly didn't even cross my mind.
The first? School delays. With snow in the forecast for tonight, I realized that I have no contingency plan for if school is delayed. And, if school cancels after that delay, I have even less of an idea what to do. That's troublesome especially given that Hubs CANNOT take off work at this time during the year, even if he had days to take (which I don't think he does).
The second? Christmas break. Believe it or not, since I became a parent, I have never worked during Christmas break. I was either teaching or a law student so I was off when the kids were off. I usually had M1's summer babysitter watch the girls if I needed to grade finals, take finals, or shop for Christmas. Unfortunately, that babysitter lives about 20 minutes away (with traffic) in the OPPOSITE direction of this new $11/hour job.
This whole, tunnel vision focus on landing a job, ANY job, to bring in money has not served any of us well it seems. I have the job at the law school too which I would really much rather be doing if I'm not working as an attorney. If I can't practice, I'd rather be teaching. Hubs was all gung ho for this $11/hour job because until today (not because this has not been said numerous times, mind you) he thought my job at the law school would end after the bar exam in February '09. That is not the case. That position is available to me until at least after the July exam in '09.
I have had to revamp my game plan considerably. I'm still not sure about the childcare issues, but what else is new?
I'm headed into this job with a can do, motivated attitude under the guise of 'we just never know how long I'll be here and I want to do a good job while I am.' After all, this isn't a career. This is a job. I will also have to explain to the boss man that for the next two weeks (until Christmas break), if the weather gets crazy, I will have arrangements made for the girls, but given the distance to work (25 minutes from my house) from their school (around 20 minutes in the OPPOSITE direction from my house), we may need to be a little flexible. I don't imagine someone who is used to law students filling this position will raise a stink but you never know.
I'm also going to speak with the professor who runs the bar passage program and find out how many hours/week are actually budgeted for my job. If it's even CLOSE to 40, I'd be better off doing the 40 hours at school after giving this clerk position a college try. YES, the clerk position is legal experience that will boost my resume, but if I look like I can't be responsible, it's not like they will give me a positive recommendation anyhow.
Tomorrow will be really hard. I'm not looking forward to the girls having to be at school until almost 6 at night. I know a lot of people do that, but I have not had to be one of them in awhile. M2, even when she was at daycare like that, had a good nap and a hot lunch. Now, she has neither of those things and I know we're going to pay for that.
I'm trying to find things that I can send with them to do after school. The games at their after school are broken or missing pieces. Hubs has issues with allowing them to take anything from home because they will lose/break/forget it. So, I guess he'll just have to get over me buying them things specifically for after school. Frankly, he can suck it. I'm the only one with guilt issues over childcare and the only one 1) making the arrangements; 2) picking up and dropping off; and 3) dealing with the aftermath of no naps, lack of proper eating throughout the day, etc.
Can you tell I'm not all that excited about tomorrow?
The worst part? No one else in this house worries one WHIT about ANY of this. I'm the only one. I hate that probably more than anything.